Category: Acceptance

Guilt And Grief – Kelly

If the kids were still alive, my daughter would not exist. And I feel so goddamn guilty about it. The daily reconciliation I have within my head and heart is dichotomous.  Every day, I am abundantly overjoyed by the presence of her, fall in… Continue Reading “Guilt And Grief – Kelly”

Letting Go – Kelly

I took this photo in 2015.  My mom is in red; We were clam digging and oyster shucking at Frye Cove Park.  If you told the lady in this photo, and the person taking it, they’d be intentionally unemployed in 2017, they would have laughed in… Continue Reading “Letting Go – Kelly”

March Forth March Fourth – Kelly

It’s coming. You know it. I know it. Mark Zuckerberg knows it. I feel pressure to write something profound; something epic and commemorative for the anniversary of the night we lost the kids, but I am unable.   So many were impacted by the fire:  The first… Continue Reading “March Forth March Fourth – Kelly”

After All, Who Am I? – Kelly

It was some time just after Madeline’s birthday when we started weathering the storm.  It reminded me of living in the Gulf of Mexico and we’d get the heeded warning about a bad one headed our way:  Batten down the hatches, throw up your storm… Continue Reading “After All, Who Am I? – Kelly”

Attachment – Brad

Attachment is the Root of All Suffering I attended my second support group meeting this week.  It was the third for Kelly – she found The Compassionate Friends after we read a book on grieving that was based on interviews with people who were… Continue Reading “Attachment – Brad”

Basement Level Love – Kelly

My stomach fluttered as I rolled over from an exhausted night of sleep.  It seems curious, to have a tiring night of sleep, but sleep does not come easily to us now.  My reasons are different than my husbands; his evening battle I wish upon… Continue Reading “Basement Level Love – Kelly”

Loving Someone Through Loss – Kelly

Jaime, a good friend of mine, came over a while ago before it started to rain everyday and the gray set in.  You know, the kind of rain that permeates everything you’re wearing and drips down deep, to your bones. It was nice to… Continue Reading “Loving Someone Through Loss – Kelly”

Memory – Brad

We are memory. This is the thought that recurs. The essence of us. What others might call our soul. I don’t believe in the soul. But I believe in memory. And I trust in physics. To make the point, I would ask, “Who are… Continue Reading “Memory – Brad”

Choose Kind – Kelly

I was just cleaning up around here and found a few relics from a life long ago.  It was less than a year ago when that life came tumbling down…but it may as well have been 10 years ago from today.     I am ashamed… Continue Reading “Choose Kind – Kelly”

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